i know what im now. im nocturnal! couldnt sleep last night. was a terrible night. everything went wrong. nothing went right. i knew it was going to happen from the start. that was why i wanted to end it as quickly as possible without sparking anything. but i guess i was just to stubborn to stop it.

you could say that i was in college for more than 12 hours. its really tiring helping out while not having any sleep. accounts assesment was a failure. i couldnt do 2/3 questions. it was just too confusing for me. jasmine thought her boyfriend and i how to do the question. both of us were so confident and when we did the paper, both of us completely forgot how to do it. its like ... so fcking hard la! i couldnt even think straight and i almost fell asleep a couple of times. i was so tired!!

after classes, a few of us helped out in the restaurant. instead of getting paid, we are getting certs. its good either ways anyway. so yeah. helped to set up the restaurant for a buffet tomorrow morning. have to be there by 7am. meaning i have so little time to sleep. sigh. i feel so tired now but i just cant sleep. if i sleep now, i would most probably think unnessasary things. sigh. i dont want that. so i dont think i will sleep. i want it to go away. i want to be free from everything. i dont want this anymore.

rick.